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Post by HollyHolic on Feb 8, 2005 23:43:00 GMT
LOL...Of course I do, and it's completely true. ;D
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Post by ♥Jaelynn♥ on Feb 8, 2005 23:45:03 GMT
those banners are too cute
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Post by HollyHolic on Feb 8, 2005 23:51:12 GMT
I like your 'Through The Flames' one a lot, and I mean a lot!
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Post by ♥Jaelynn♥ on Feb 9, 2005 0:19:45 GMT
thank you!! i found it online, i have no clue where, i have been to so many banner websites!!!! lol
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Post by HollyHolic on Feb 9, 2005 0:30:30 GMT
LOL...Yeah, I have too. But I've converted to making my own so, yeah. ;D
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Post by ~Liz~ on Feb 9, 2005 15:22:20 GMT
I want to make my own, but I don't know where I can join a place and make my own banners. Where could I join anyone know?
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Post by HollyHolic on Feb 9, 2005 22:11:41 GMT
No I don't actually...Sorry....
Okay, dudes: here's another update...Um, I haven't been doing good, at all and my teacher and I are going to go see a counselor together after, of course, she and I sit down and talk to my mom about what's going on. I've been cutting and seriously considering suicide, I know, this is big, but I told my teacher and we've decided that I either need to start counseling, or check into an institution, so we decided on a counselor. So, I need some strength from you guys, because I love you all...So, all this is happening tomorrow, we're sitting down with my mom and my teacher and I are going to tell her everything that's been going on. I'm so scared and I really don't want to do this, but I know it's the only way I'm going to get better. And I know I'll have my teacher there, holding my hand so hopefully I'll be okay. I may not be able to get back to you all. It may end up that I have to check in some place to get immediate help. So, I love you all and I don't want you guys to worry because I know you're all praying for me. So um, I'll see you guys when I see you. I love you all.... Angie
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Post by ~Liz~ on Feb 9, 2005 22:16:00 GMT
Ang... well I love you too. Even if you do I'm with you 100% of the way. I will always be in your heart, and you'll be in mine. I will pray for you more then anything in the world Ang never give up.
Love you always, Liz
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Post by ♥Jaelynn♥ on Feb 10, 2005 3:50:47 GMT
you are in my prayers!! i hope that everything goes well and that it all turns into what is best for you! remember that we love you and we are here for you!!!
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Post by ~Liz~ on Feb 11, 2005 19:17:03 GMT
I don't think she'll be back for awhile guys. I'm not sure, but she might have had to check into an instittution, I can try to find out.
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Post by HollyHolic on Feb 13, 2005 1:46:12 GMT
Hey, dudes. I have another update. Ends up that my teacher and I never got a chance to sit down and talk to my mom on Thursday because my teacher was extremely scared that I was going to do something and I can't say that I blame her, because I don't. I know she loves me and I love her. So, anyways, Thursday during my 5th hour, she came into my classroom with this horrible look on her face. I thought something was wrong, but as it turns out, she was upset because she had told our vice principal about our talks and how close we'd become and all that and as it turns out, by law she had to tell someone in higher authority than herself because she could have been liable for my death if I would have carried out my plans. So, she's telling me this outside of my class and she immediately started crying. When she told me, I dropped to the floor and started crying. So the two of us were bawling in the middle of the hallway. Then she tells me that I have to go with her to talk to the principal in her office which was even worse. So in the office, we're both in tears and she's holding my hand as the principal told us what was going to happen. I had to be taken to the mental hospital which is fairly close to the school. Unfortunately, my teacher wasn't able to come with me. She wanted to come and I wanted her to come, but she had to go teach her 6th hour, which is the class she has me in. So a polic officer and the principal transported me to the hospital where I was admitted and evaluated. Fortunately, I didn't have to stay over night and I got to leave an hour later. But I have an appointment with a really good counselor, meaning that I'm finally getting help. It's funny because once I got out of the hospital, I went back to school to see her and talk to her. She felt bad because she violated my trust and I felt bad because she was crying and bawling and completely upset. But we said sorry once and agreed not to be sorry again. I don't know what I would have done if it wasn't for her. That day, she must have told me she loved me a hundred times and she held my hand the whole time and she kept extremely close to me. And that means so much. How many teachers do you all know would do that? Yeah, she's like my mother now, but still, a teacher...It completely blows my mind, but we're so much closer than we've ever been. So I start sessions sometime next week, hopefully soon. And my teacher promised me that no matter what, we'll always talk after school and every thing that we're still doing because like she said, she'd miss me too much and I'd miss her too much. After two, three years of feeling so alone I don't anymore. I've found that person which is an awesome feeling. And I've told her that too. Anyway, I'll try to write later. Thanks for your prayers, I love you all.... Angie
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Post by hollymariecombs4 on Feb 13, 2005 16:08:45 GMT
well Ang that's good news. nd it's great that you have those feelings for youre teacher i mean it's great she's helping you like that
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Post by Julie on Feb 14, 2005 17:11:31 GMT
Keep checking in and let us know how it's going!!
This is definitely a message to everyone out there!! When you have problems reach out!! Find someone to listen. There are so many people out there who need help and just as many people willing to help!!
I am so amazed and delighted when I come to this part of the board and read how so many of you respond to your fellow board members and their problems. You are not professionals yet many of you know exactly what to say and how to reach out!!
Thanks to all of you for being such great people!!!
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Post by ~Liz~ on Feb 14, 2005 21:23:17 GMT
Yeah, we do don't we.
Ang, I am very proud of you and I love you girl. I am very glad that you found someone to talk to. I never did get to talk to my confirmation leader, but I have been talking to my freind Angel, who wants to be called Angie cause she hates her name. Anyway Ang keep on updating us about everything.
Love ya always Liz
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Post by HollyHolic on Feb 20, 2005 21:46:33 GMT
Hey, it's been awhile. I started counseling on Wednesday. I absolutely hate it, but my teacher says it's good for me. This is hard for me to say, but you all deserve to know. My counselor did a suicide screening on me. She tested me in 4 different areas and 3 out of the 4 were in the 100's which is a seriously bad thing. One was barely in the average. So Thursday, I had to tell my mom that I'm a danger to myself and am now officialy labled as suicidal. I'm on suicide watch 24/7. I'm not allowed to be around knives, scissors, safety pins, anything sharp is not allowed. And if I do cut anymore or try to kill myself, then I will be hospitalized. It's kind of funny because this lady isn't going to see me for very much longer because I'm above her. Meaning she's not good enough to see me. I'm in need of serious help. It all kinda makes me feel like a psyco and I guess I am. But on Thursday, my teacher and I are supposed to go to see this counselor together since I'm closer to her than I am to my mom. Things aren't getting better and every day is a struggle not to kill or cut myself. I think that about covers it... Angie
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