Post by HollyMarie on Jun 6, 2005 6:08:17 GMT
[[ I should be in bed lol But I wanted to finished posting this ]]
As you most of you know, I used to cut myself. Well I got into this huge fight with my parents- I exploded, and I was screaming down the road and admitted to cutting myself. My parents saw the marks and I was admitted into a hospital. The hospital is in Niagara Falls and it's called Bridges. I was there for 2 weeks and I made some friends. Most of them did worse then cutting. But I was amazed when I found out a 8 year old was in there for overdosing. That scared me because the 8 year olds in my family [besides imidiate] I don't think .. even know what overdosing is! But anyway .. ever since i came home it's been O-K-A-Y. Not the best. My dad and mom still yell at me, my dad mostly now and my mom does if she has to.
I haven't been hit once and that's what I'm gratful for. But my brother hits me where it hurts. He calls me things like, a sleeper, a hooker, very *friendly* person, tramp, [other swear words .. they get worse!] and when I get mad at him for it and tell him to shut up he'll say things like: Go cut yourself or go and try to kill yourself you f'n suicidal moron. .. Those kind of things. Now .. even for that I'd make sure he'd be grounded but he hasn't yet. .. Obviously some people in school know. Especially since when he was asked, my brother said "I don't know where she is, I think she died" .. and some people in school have admitted to seeing my scars and they figured it out .. but overall I guess I'm okay. I missed my brother Colin like crazy and after the first week there I wouldnt talk to anyone in my family [mom and dad only really lol] .. but yeah.
I'm doing better and I hope anyone who's going through anything like this get help. And although i'm sorry to rain on my lil happy chipper perade- I have been thinking about cutting, overdosing and .. ect. And I'm afraid I might lose it again but if so, you guys can believe that if im back I'm staying here. You guys are wonderful to me and I love ya'll deeply.
Alright, exams now .. night!
Ash
As you most of you know, I used to cut myself. Well I got into this huge fight with my parents- I exploded, and I was screaming down the road and admitted to cutting myself. My parents saw the marks and I was admitted into a hospital. The hospital is in Niagara Falls and it's called Bridges. I was there for 2 weeks and I made some friends. Most of them did worse then cutting. But I was amazed when I found out a 8 year old was in there for overdosing. That scared me because the 8 year olds in my family [besides imidiate] I don't think .. even know what overdosing is! But anyway .. ever since i came home it's been O-K-A-Y. Not the best. My dad and mom still yell at me, my dad mostly now and my mom does if she has to.
I haven't been hit once and that's what I'm gratful for. But my brother hits me where it hurts. He calls me things like, a sleeper, a hooker, very *friendly* person, tramp, [other swear words .. they get worse!] and when I get mad at him for it and tell him to shut up he'll say things like: Go cut yourself or go and try to kill yourself you f'n suicidal moron. .. Those kind of things. Now .. even for that I'd make sure he'd be grounded but he hasn't yet. .. Obviously some people in school know. Especially since when he was asked, my brother said "I don't know where she is, I think she died" .. and some people in school have admitted to seeing my scars and they figured it out .. but overall I guess I'm okay. I missed my brother Colin like crazy and after the first week there I wouldnt talk to anyone in my family [mom and dad only really lol] .. but yeah.
I'm doing better and I hope anyone who's going through anything like this get help. And although i'm sorry to rain on my lil happy chipper perade- I have been thinking about cutting, overdosing and .. ect. And I'm afraid I might lose it again but if so, you guys can believe that if im back I'm staying here. You guys are wonderful to me and I love ya'll deeply.
Alright, exams now .. night!
Ash
