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Post by HollyHolic on Apr 6, 2005 22:42:16 GMT
Here are some pics of my cuts...  |
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Post by Rafael on Apr 6, 2005 23:17:00 GMT
yeah
told Ang is ok to post it here... for people to see and for people who are thinking of doing it.. Don't! This is something you don't wanna do. And if you have already. I just want you to know that there's way to get help.
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Post by HollyMarie on Apr 6, 2005 23:27:00 GMT
Angie,
I know it's a lil .. hipicritical for me to be giving advice. But yours are kinda worse then mine so i should atleast say something. I can't stop you from cutting. Hell, I can't stop myself. But please, if u ever feel like doin it and u do.. please don't go too far. I don't care who pissed you off. You've got us all here. And we DONT want to lose you.
Rafael: Some ppl don't want help though. For some ppl it's there only way to take out frustration and I know I, or anyone else shouldn't do it but to be honest, the last I did it .. I was so angry I didn't/couldn't think. I just did it and when it was over I guess I did start to think about how stupid it was .. and as for now .. I think I'm starting to find a better way that maybe others could try? Well I got my own computer and it's password protected so on wordpad I just scream everything out .. It's R-rated for language .. but it's a way for me to get out my anger and have no one else look at it ..
I guess others could try it .. it's worked the past week 4 me ..
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Post by Dianna on Apr 6, 2005 23:46:22 GMT
 You must have been going through a hard time. What were your thoughts at the time?
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Post by HollyHolic on Apr 7, 2005 0:44:01 GMT
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Post by HollyHolic on Apr 7, 2005 0:51:20 GMT
Yeah me and Raffi were talking on MSN and we decided this would be a good way for me to reach out to everyone and anyone who's thought about cutting. You don't want to cut. If you do, you will never hate and love something so much at the same time. Like I said, I have 25 cuts on my wrist and 4 on each of my ankles. I don't know if you can tell in the pics, but my veins are bruised, and the wrist band I wear to cover them up makes them hurt worse. And my high top converse rub on the cuts on my ankles and make them bleed. What was going through my mind at the time? Well, it's difficult to explain, but when I cut, I go into a trance where I don't hear anything or see anything other than the blood. I see my skin tearing and I feel the knife or plastic cutting into my skin. I hate it and love it at the same time. I want to stop and yet I feel like I have to keep cutting to stay alive. I haven't cut in a whole 48 hours and I plan on going for 72 hours. I have to take it a day at a time and it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I'm doing it. I just want you all to know that this, what you see, isn't worth it. Find a different way other than cutting. And if you are cutting, then stop before your wrist looks like mine. I'll have these scars for the rest of my life. I can't take them back, but I can prevent more.
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Post by Rafael on Apr 7, 2005 1:05:05 GMT
Rafael: Some ppl don't want help though. Yeah but I'm saying for people that want help. And for people that don't, they should realize that what they doing is not healthy and they should find a way to stop. I know it's hard, But there are people out there who are willing to help. |
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Post by HollyHolic on Apr 7, 2005 1:19:04 GMT
Yeah but I'm saying for people that want help. And for people that don't, they should realize that what they doing is not healthy and they should find a way to stop. I know it's hard, But there are people out there who are willing to help. I was a person who didn't want help until my teacher helped me realize that my life is worth living. I still cut and I'm trying hard not to. It's like a drug addiction. That's the only way I can explain it. But I'm getting help and I'm trying to stop. I just want people to know that there are people out there who will listen to you, no matter what you've done, how many scars you have. Just get help before it's too late. |
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Post by Holly's Shadow on Apr 7, 2005 3:36:27 GMT
I'll Pm you Ang.... don't really want to post out in the open.. sorry guys and gals
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Post by Rafael on Apr 7, 2005 5:58:38 GMT
Singing *If you're happy and you know it clap your hand*
Sorry lol
we need some happy thoughts here
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Post by littleholly on Apr 7, 2005 11:14:09 GMT
Guys Im really sorry to hear about you all cutting, I have to admit I have done it only once, but the scar on my arm made me realize that for me this wasnt the way to go about venting, i too got into writing to express my anger, and now I write for love and fun as well, Im glad things are getting better for both you guys, and if either of you ever need to talk Im here xx
(raffi you are nuts)
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Post by Holly's Shadow on Apr 7, 2005 21:32:05 GMT
Singing *If you're happy and you know it clap your hand*Sorry lol we need some happy thoughts here Lol.. your only clapping with one hand, Raf?  (JK) |
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Post by Rafael on Apr 7, 2005 22:06:04 GMT
Lol.. your only clapping with one hand, Raf? (JK) oops Lol Hands |
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Post by HollyHolic on Apr 7, 2005 22:09:34 GMT
I'm going to take these pictures down, simply because I know it's scary and disturbing. But keep posting here and sharing you feelings.
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Post by Rafael on Apr 7, 2005 22:14:05 GMT
I'm going to take these pictures down, simply because I know it's scary and disturbing. But keep posting here and sharing you feelings. ok |
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You must have been going through a hard time. What were your thoughts at the time?
(JK)